Changing

                 Today I am going to talk about “Everyday Use” and my Foreign Exchange.

The main point is about Dee, when she comes home after college and how she has changed.

She became independent from her family and so do I, I am changing right now and mostly in a good way.

                 A  few days ago somebody said to me that i have changed,  in a good way, I became more confident and talk active, and feel  more comfortable to be in a conversation with somebody.

The best part she mentioned: “ Your english has improved”. First I could not believe it because I did not feel the same way, but when I was thinking about it I realized that this statement is totally true.

At the beginning of my Exchange Year I did not even understand what people were talking about but now, now, I almost understand everything.

             Another point, not only your language gets better but also your self-confidence.

You are independent from your family and you have to work out problems without any help of people you know really well. No, you have to do it by yourself. It is not always easy but it will work, somehow.

            The next part is similar to the others but anyway, you get stronger. When something is bad or somebody dies and you are far away from your family you cannot do anything. Two months ago a family member of mine died and it was such an awkward feeling not to be at home, but I worked it out, somehow, no I did not. You are here and you just cannot realize, but then you realize, but in reality you cannot. What I did was just keeping up my life, try to think about something else and because of the people here and the encouragement from my family, I kinda worked it out.

           You also learn that you have to accept things the way, they happen.

I have a good example. On a boring day I was sitting in front of the computer when suddenly my organization called me and told me that they have a host family for me. I was so happy and I almost cried but when I heard that I will come to North Dakota, you could see the disappointment in my face. But why was I so sad? Because of my expectations, they were way too high. So I was more disappointed but by the time living in the nowhere, meeting so many friends, I realized that California or living in a better state is not everything, the people are everything, you can live at your dream place and you do not have any friends, or you can live in the out in the  nowhere with many  friends. And honestly, I really love it here.

           The last point is a point I am really sad about. Before my big adventure began, there were so many preparations to do and so much stress. I personally think I made the time before the departure a horror time for my family because we as exchange students are so excited to go abroad, to go to America that we do not notice how much we hurt our family and friends with counting the days left  and stuff like that.  The excitement is too high so we just think about us, how we feel, how excited we are and we just talk about leaving all the time. It must be hard for our family and friends, because for them, nothing will change, everything is the same just without us. They are not jealous,no, maybe friends, but they are going to miss you like crazy and if talk about going away, living your dream, all the time is much harder.

I did not have a good start in my year because of a few problems and that made me feel homesick. I always skyped with my mom and told her how much i miss her and just did not realize how she felt. She was sad too but she did not want to show me it. And now when I am thinking about it, it was a big mistake to tell her that I miss her, sure you can tell her, but not all the time. It has been a while till I noticed it but I did, and I will never do this again, because i learned, I learned that missing somebody should not ruin your day or time abroad, you should try to be happy and keep up doing your best, and it gets better, for sure.

            And what I wanted to express with my speech is that I changed, I changed in many ways and I am really proud of doing this, of doing this big adventure because it helps me in my future. I am also changing right now, I am changing the whole time and at the end there will be some people who like me like this way and some who do not like me anymore, I really do not care about it because I learned not to think so much about  what other people think about me, so I will see and  definitely keep up doing the same as now.